Mark and I just spent some time having a good heart to heart talk about our family, our hopes, and our future. Although it's only been a few weeks since our "future plans" fell through, we are already feeling restless in this stuck place we have been since then. I don't know if it's a Westernized culture thing or a prompting from God, but we want to get unstuck. We talked and talked and talked. But one thing I said summed it all up perfectly:
It is hard to gain momentum when you don't know where you're going.
That's us. We know that we need to not stay in this place. We're ready to take the next baby step, but we have absolutely no idea which direction to go. We will always, always, always love and care for the daughter of our hearts, but we have to keep moving...somewhere. For the first time in our marriage, we don't know what is next.
So after all that talking, we resolved to...wait. It is really hard to do that - we feel like we've spent the last year waiting. But the only thing that scares us more than staying here is discovering we have ended up somewhere we don't want to be. We're going to wait and see what God has in store for us. We will wait for Him to guide our first, tentative baby steps.