Monday, November 22, 2010

Painful, Brief Update

Many of you may have realized by now that the blog is now missing several posts I wrote while in Latvia.  I have deleted these posts because, for various reasons, my blog wasn't a safe place for my thoughts through that time.   I also deleted them because they served as a painful reminder of what wasn't.

Without going into detail here and now, the adoption of our sweet Latvian daughter has fallen apart.  It was unexpected and heartbreaking, and we are still trying to pick up the pieces of our hearts.  I would love nothing more than to pour out my thoughts and our experience through this time on the blog, not just for my own personal health but also for any other families who, heaven forbid, go through this.  But, again, this is not be a safe outlet for us right now.

I am toying with making this a private blog so that I can once again have the freedom to lay it all out there honestly and vulnerably.  If I do that, please, please feel free to "join" or whatever it is a person has to do to gain access to a private blog - especially those visiting from "All Are Precious In His Sight".  As awful as it may be, I think there is probably a place for the thoughts of a expectant adoptive mom who is walking out a failed adoption.  But to do this, I must know I am safe here.

So keep checking back.  I want (and need) this blog to be up and going again.

In the meantime, we covet your prayers for everyone involved.


Kat said...

My heart is aching for you. I am praying for God's peace.

FaerieMama said...

Ann, I am praying. My heart is with you.

Anonymous said...

Ann I am praying for peace and understanding for you and your family.

Anonymous said...

Thanks for updating your blog Ann. I can't even imagine what you are all going through right now. I pray that you would feel surrounded by God's peace and love as you walk through this valley.

I look forward to more updates as you feel comfortable posting.

Meg said...

I am so sorry to here that this has happened. I came upon your blog from "All are precious in his Sight" and have been checking religiously for updates. When the latvia posts disappeared I was so worried something bad had happened.

I hope you will continue to share updates with us and what happened. I cant imagine what you are going through. You are in my prayers.


Anonymous said...

I'm so sorry for you all. Know that I am praying.